To be honest, I haven't known what to write, lately. I've been in a bit of a creative lull. It's what I call "creative constipation", for the simple fact that I just can't seem to get anything moving.
I'm not sure why I end up here time and time again, but I've accepted that it's a natural part of the creative process. It's natural to go through periods of uncertainty and lack before finally arriving at a place where those things no longer hold you.
When I ask myself why I'm having trouble writing, my usual answer is, "because I have nothing to say". Even saying this to myself is laughable, because it's simply not true (I literally always have something to say). Yet, it's still how I feel.
I believe this is directly tied to uncertainty as well. Not knowing what the future holds when it comes to my career, the world, or life as a whole has been enough to make me step back and ask,
"Do I even know anything at all?"
But I do!
Sometimes I need reminders, but I do know myself and the world around me, even with uncertainty clouding my sunshine.
Going back to the things we know in times of uncertainty can help us realize that we know more than we realize. Why not go back to the basics? Why not remind yourself of who you are, what you want, and where you aim to be?
I guess that's my solution after all: reminding myself of what I know.
I know that uncertainty won't last forever—I'll know what I'm supposed to, when I'm supposed to. I know that actually nothing lasts forever, not the good or the bad. And with that, I know this lull of mine won't be here for much longer. In the midst of not knowing what's next, I still know who I am. As long as I continue to remind myself, continue to return to this, I'll be able to find my way out of uncertainty one day soon.
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